The Sweet Escape

Sunday, March 18

HEY(:

well let me just start with quoting what desmond told me today, "sometimes we are the worst critics of ourselves".

i don't know if that's really true for me yet, but yea, we'll see.

led worship today, but i don't know if i was actually leading songs, or leading the congregation. of course, there was a mix of praises and critics. but i've grown to get used to them. but sometimes, just like anyone, the praises will somehow frail in contrast to the critics.
i'm really open to feedback, and i like them. but i always seem to return home, thinking about the critics once again, and i'll feel sore about it.

i just feel that i've alot more growing to do, certainly not physically, but more of the spirtualll aspect. though lindy & poh said that when they saw me leading, they felt i've grown.

i do understand that peoplle set different requirements and expectations of how their worship should be. and of course i cannot try to please everyone, cause the only one i need to please,is the ever living God. but sometimes, sometimes, it's rather hard yea.

had the combined youth worship prac today after church.
another aspect was that desmond said i should not hold back when i sing.
he said like a few times" you've got a great voice, but you're holding back, just sing,".
well,i don't know but i feel unconfident of my singing. sometimes, all the " you're singing off" or"you cannot sing"phrases, get to me.
lindy also saidd the same thing, that i have a good voice, but holding back.! but don't know why, i kinda think i'm not good enough, or my voice is not good enough.

it'sallintheprocessofdiscoveringmyself.

but other people thanked me for leading, and they said that the enjoyed it.all glory to the Lord.
well, anyway i had fun during worship today. i felt it was the first time i wasn't conscious of myself, and the people in front of me.
Thank You Lord, for all the trials that you give me, knowing fully well i will overcome them, yet grow from the experience!
I Love You,God:D

My savior
Redeemer
Lifted me from the miry clay

Almighty
Forever, I will never be the same
Cause You came here
From the everlasting
To the world we live
The Father’s only Son

And You lived
You died
You rose again on high
You opened the way for the world to live again

Hallelujah, for all You’ve done

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school tomorrow! yayness! new school uniforms:D
bye, and have a stunning week ahead, LOVELIES.

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